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Because I’ve been absent from the writing social networks doesn’t mean I’ve been absent from writing. Last month I wrote a 60-70K-word novel that’s publishable once I finish editing it. There’s strong characters, a (mostly) believable plot, and it’s the culmination of the technical stuff I’ve learn from the writing craft. Not saying it’s my best work, but it doesn’t suck, either.

But it’s Not Safe for Work (NSFW) due to pornography of a sexual and violent nature.

I’m having a problem with this genre because I believe personal ethics are best displayed through actions, not words. I have held, and continue to hold, a position of trust and have done so for most my adult life. This is not by accident. At the other end of reality: I am probably the least successful writer you will ever meet. It’s not for lack of passion or energy or expenditure. The market is flooded with thousands of great books, and I am one grain of sand in this great age of self-publication.

Mindful of this, I sat down a few weeks ago and wrote. And I kept writing and opened a door to something inside that I didn’t know existed. Sex, violence, hate, abuse, family drama, organized crime, murder, the whole works. It spewed out and felt like I vomited on the keyboard when I was done. My favorite fan read about 25K of it and has not gone back to finish it. I don’t blame her one bit. But in this age of anything goes, this book would probably sell a few dozen copies. Maybe more.

There are those not bothered by such a dilemma. This is the “the end justifies the means” crowd. Give up a little piece of your soul and earn those thirty pieces of silver. I’m not above this idea. Lord knows I want the “standard rich and famous contract” so I can sleep in every day, but doing it through porn like this makes me feel the wrong kind of dirty.

I don’t know how this will turn out. I tempted to bury this puppy, or I could adopt a porn name and publish the sucker just to get it out of my system. That’s a slippery slope because if I do one book, I may be trapped into doing more, not my first choice.

For now, the draft goes into my “Ideas” folder with the seven or eight other unpublished works. Maybe then I’ll stop thinking about it. I hope so, anyway.

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